Today's morning pages took me forever to complete. My mind was darting here there and everywhere.
See. I'm not able to follow. I'm all over the place. I envy people who can focus on one task at a time. I opened my journal, began to write, checked an email, got a bite to eat, made tea, came back to my desk, checked my bank account, did some instant messaging with friends, looked at my journal, read another email, downloaded a podcast for heavensakes, ate a few almonds, reapplied my lip balm, got up to do a few dishes, shuffled through a few papers, opened a few bills, prepped my Netflix videos for return, revisited my journal, made a call, THEN FINALLY got back to my pages only when I knew I would run out of time to get them done before I had to zip off to work.
What is my DEAL? Why can't I just focus on one thing and get it done? I could have peacefully wrote in my pages and then head off to work in a timely manner instead of rushing the process and darting out the door without a moment to spare.
Even inside the pages, my mind was all over the place. How does one focus? How can I simply start something and finish something without doing 7 thousand things in between? Maddening, I tell you. Maddening!